couldnt believe it myself, i actually went to kallang stadium to watch soccer. Singapore vs Lebanon. yeah, shoot me! cuzzin ayunu was like nudging me early this morning. asking me whether i've got plans tonite. and i sd no. so she was like irritatingly persuading me to accompany her to watch soccer. and i was like, "are you out of your damn mind!" im so not in the least interest to watch it. really! like for goodness sake. but come think of it, maybe for once, something new i should try and experience. and so i agreed. *smile* meet ayunu at 6-ish at bedok then proceed to kallang stadium. the crowd wasnt that bad. not much of a rapid bustling commotion. witness the game for like 2 hrs. and yes thank god, Singapore won 2-0 to Lebanon. w00h00! this winning surely is worth my freaking 10 bucks! *evil grin*

so cuzzin, you know who to call up for soccer game the next time round ya.. bluek!

what would you do if your relationship no longer can hold out anymore? you feel that your relationship is already dead. you feel that your feeling's already dead. you feel that your strength to hold on is already dead. BUT, no doubt, it seems like you can't let go. what is probably stopping you from ending the relationship? you've tried your best to hold on. to improve things between you and the other party. to lighten up the light that used to shine your relationship. but it seems like all this doesn't really can outnumbered the dead feeling you are feeling currently.

was it ever fair to you if you were to go on lying to everyone around you including yourself? you lied to everyone that you're happy but deep down inside you're feeling betrayed, clueless, restless, hopeless. you just wished that someone out there truly understand you way deep down inside. was it ever fair to you to lie to YOURSELF just to make that other someone happy? you just feel that you owe that person way too much that you can't simply afford to hurt him. you'll need a lifetime to repay his kindness. but what's worse of all, when that someone has all the back-up he need from YOUR OWN family. you just feel and wished that you would be dead already by now. how painful it is when your own family turn their back against you? how hurtful it is when your own family blame you for everything that happened. you just feel that if you weren't dead yet, you just wanted to kill yourself there and then.

what would you do when you feel that there's no use going on? and that you feel you should put a stop to all the pretending.


Dear God, I Need Your Guidance.

was so damn busy today. mr bossy was like asking me to do this and that. i've not even finished the first bloody job he gave me and yet he throw another 5 more jobs. damn! guess its time for me to be the hardworking employee who have got alot of jobs to settle. after being so free for way too long. kekeke! well oh well, im on for it!! hakz!

on the other hand, only manage to be online msn 45 mins to 5!! shoosh!! girlfriend was online. and she was like the FIRST person to said "wah! so busy huh today?!" thanks hor girlfriend!! doink!! hee. was asking girlfriend. whether she still wanna go orchard, in courtesy of the previous nite she messaged me late at nite asking me to accompany her. oh please!! hehe. despite it was raining! and was asking ayunu along. so, decided to meet girlfriend and ayunu at eunos mrt. and it was still raining. haiyah! so instead of proceeding to orchard. we thrio decided to have dinner instead. without wasting more time, proceed to joo chiat's nasi ayam penyet. had our girls talk over dinner. super pure laughter & stupid jokes! my oh my! our stomachs are like so gonna burst from all that laughter siaa! had our moment of fun & laughter though! *evil grin*

was online on msn. wen suddenly kak nonie was saying that she's craving for thosai?! *slap forehead* heee.. so we were planning on where to eat n stuffs. and kak nonie was telling myself n ayunu tat kak linda n nadya oso tagging. so we decided to go over at my favourite thosai place which is beside tekka market. so after werk, proceed to ayunu's werk plc to wait for her to fin werk at 6. after which, procced to tekka along wif wada's sis n boyfie. rchd tekka at abt 7 and meet the rest. had our meal. and it was soo super keco lah sey. hee. but we had our equal share of fun & laughter though. more of such "sudden-craving moments" aite cuzzie. hehe. bluek!

met mai & fiz for another one of our ka-lao-ke session. sang our lungs out till 10pm. and off we went for supper at simpang bedok. another cowok-king session.. hehe. more of such sessions aite babes! *evil grin*