restless & hopeless is wat i've bn feeling for the past few days. i kept alot of things to myself. i would rather bury them in my heart then let it out. reason being, i just don't know who i shld tell & how i shld start. i cant blame anyone except myself. i only have myself to blame. damn! why are things happening beyond my control? why?! i didnt want it to happen but it just had to happened. leaving me restless & hopeless. thinking & brooding over it. i hate it when those problems just had to appear & disturb me when im alone trying to calm myself down & give myself space to breath.
one problem after another, haunting me. pulling me down. all i can do is cry to sleep. honestly, crying wasnt enough to wash away those problems. but tat is all tat i can afford to do. life has been hard enough for me. and thank god i can still stand strong. but who knows, how long will i be able to stand strong? how long? im so tired leading life this way. if only i could just ran & hide away from all this unwanted misery. IF ONLY I COULD....
dear GOD, please forgive my wrongdoings....
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
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