met aisyah, hanom & faezah after werk at tamp mall.. miss them so much.. it's bn like 2 or 3 mths since we last met.. all of them are getting prettier.. hehe.. decided to go for a shisha session at esplanade... took train frm tamp to harbourfront.. followed blur hanom who thought esplanade was at harbourfront???! heheh.. then took the train again back to city hall.. then walk frm city hall to citylink then to marina square.. aisyah was complaining of hunger.. so bought long john and ended up eating by the esplanade... went drinking after lazing arnd at esplanade.. walked to boat quay.. walked through the whole stretch of boat quay.. my goodness!! thank god, the 4 of us wore flats.. we tot of drinking at one of the pub along boat quay.. but couldn't decide which one so we went to 7-11 and bought drinks n ciggy frm there... sat by the riverside along boat quay.. had freaking fun camwhoring & laughing till late at nite.. really missed those laughter we used to have.. and oh ya.. the four of us had planned something cute... heheh.. am so excited juz talking abt it now.. shall update here n my friendster when the days come ya.. till then, hv a great week ahead.. tata!!

sometimes, i wonder, is 'LOVE' really that great?? can 'LOVE' solves everything? can 'LOVE' really give you happiness?? im still struggling to understand 'LOVE'.. for now, i feel that 'LOVE' spoilt me.. spoilt me so much so that i'm taking advantage of it itself.. i never knew even 'LOVE' has its pros and cons.. ppl says that it's better to be loved rather than to love someone.. is it true? and is it true that if that someone controls ur life, it means that he/she loves you? some ppl agree with that but i don't.. i find it a burden.. a burden i hv to carry in a relationship.. a burden i hv to go through in a relationship.. call me heartless or useless... i don't mind.. maybe i've yet to learn to appreciate whoever who loves me.. but i did tried my best..

tell me, have i always been in the wrong for the past few years with you? hv i? its hard to go through life with you but im trying my best.. it seems like im always the bad fella in everyone's eyes.. do u tink i enjoy hurting you?? i simply dont!! i know u've done alot for me.. everyone knows.. it'll take me forever to return ur kindness.. well, many things happened recently.. and im telling you, im getting sick n tired.. i ask for ur permission for a 'time-off', but u disagree.. i really need one.. it seems that we are tearing apart.. somehow or rather, i can feel it.. i juz dont feel the happiness we used to have anymore.. ur getting more n more over-protective.. and im getting sick n fed-up of ur actions.. i cried to myself everytime wen i am remembered of our plans for end of this year.. will we stay to that moment?? will we?? im just so lost rite now.. im losing my effort n strength to hold on already.. i've had enough..

Please Forgive Me For Not Holding On........

well, it's bn like almost one month since i last update my blog... it's either i dont have the mood to update or there's not much things to blog.. but i cant deny the fact that alot of things happened.. and i mean, unexpected things ok.. well, shall continue next time lah ok.. im feeling so slack rte now.. till then, adios!