went to nek aman's hse earlier tis evening... it's bn so long since i visit nenek.. e last time was like during hari raya haji... luckily need to take something if not i don't know when else i would visit nenek.. it was heartbreaking when i enter nenek's hse.. atmosphere was so solemn.. e lights was dim.. my imagination run back when arwah embah was still around.. embah would lie down in his favourite sofa & watch 'gusti' (wrestling).. he would get mad if anyone changed the channel.. *smile* arwah embah likes to asked abt his grandchildren whereabouts.. stil remember.. "mana nur? sudah lama enggak dtg?" in fact, im sitting behind him.. hehe.. wat do u expect.. senile already.. *smile* arwah embah doesn't talk much wif his grandchildren... neither wif anyone.. every now & then, im missing his egg toast.. i remember 5 yrs ago.. my family had to stay over for a few months at nenek aman's hse.. then every morning, before going to school, embah would prepare his speciality, egg toast for everyone.. myself & my 2 other brothers would quarrel over his egg toast.. hehe.. then occasionally, embah would give me & my siblings extra pocket money even though my mom has already given us.. *smile* even after we shifted to our new home, my family occasionally visit embah & nenek.. embah nvr fail to give me & my siblings pocket money.. even if it's $1, he is never stingy.. embah is a loving grandfather even though he doesn't talk much.. mak long & nenek always sd tat embah's favourite grandchildren is asraff, abg, aman & myself.. especially asraff.. but of course, he loves his other grandchildrens... *sob* i had always wanted to repay embah's kindness when i had a stable job.. but Allah loves him more.. Allah took embah away from me.. on the day embah left us, nenek pass a remark to me & the rest of the grandchildrens... "ni embah da takde, jgn lupe nenek pulak!" my dear nenek, nor tak akan luper kan nenek.. dan nor tak akan luperkan embah.. nor terhutang budi dgn nenek & embah.. embah, terime kasih kerana menyayangi diri nor.. nor rindukan embah..

to atok yahya & baby angel alpha noshin, there's never a time i forget you..

You Are Always In My Heart & My Prayers.... Al-Fateha...