Trust is something that I have always found difficult. I know that part of the reason for this, is because I have been let down by people most of my life. I found that internally I was in a constant battle over whether I could trust him or not. I guess, part of me felt, for some time, fear and mistrust over whether or not he would stay. Also, I feared trusting too soon. I felt, pretty much straight away, that I could trust him, but yet, I was afraid to go down that path for some time. Earlier on, whenever I took a step and trusted him on some level, there was a part of me that started panicking over taking that step.

I find, for me, trust is something, that during various times in life, it is important for me to revisit. In the past I found trusting people on the outset extremely difficult, whereas now, it is rebuilding trust with people who have let me down. I am currently contemplating the trust worthiness of some people that I have been let down by, in different ways. It is definitely harder to rebuild trust, after you have been let down. I am not saying that it is an impossibility, though sadly, in some cases this is so. I know one person, who for the moment I do not trust him, but know that there is still hope of working through that. However, in cases where I have been shattered, I know that rebuilding trust is out of the equation. Sometimes I have found it difficult to accept that I really do not trust certain people. However, in order to do that it is important to firsty acknowledge it, and then in time it does become easier to accept that fact.

~Life is a living experience~